Monday, March 28, 2005

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stress,

what the hell is stress?? it is define in dictionary as A mentally or emotionally disruptive or upsetting condition occurring in response to adverse external influences and capable of affecting physical health, usually characterized by increased heart rate, a rise in blood pressure, muscular tension, irritability, and depression.
so what is stress, those dam word will never explain it.
i might meet it before, in my dreams; i might even seen it before, eventho it is an abstract force.
the thing is, i am in stress......but i have no idea what is stress.

life suck, these 2 words is always accepted by me. coz my life suc, all those feelings, numb, stress, etc, etc. well apart that i dun know what is stress.
apparently, i know what is numb. it can be say a song....by LINKIN PARK and Jayz...NUMB/ ENCORE, but it is not what i mean right now.

sometimes, i feel the pressure from my family.
have u ever heard of the "stupid" second?? well it is made up by me.
all i know is that being the second coming out of my mom womb is a bad thing.
coz, it's all the second's fault. why don't i be the first?? or mayb the last?? WHY???

but the most important thing is.....i have to live with it....
so from now on, start living with it...
living like hell, or heavan.........i dun care...
as long i am gud....then gud.

Numb,
what is numb??
those kind of feelin when u feel like something, and u still dun want that thing...
isn't that wierd. u wan something badly, but when u have it, u feel like loosing it.
mayb this feeling is encounter by everyone, even U, but the fact that it is a nature feeling,
so we still live with it. it can also say to be confuse,.....well sort of........but yea...
numb is a preferable word for me to describe my feelin now...

well i still get over it...i hope.....
coz life goes on, and i can't be trouble by these doubt and feelings,
coz i need to go on with it.

ON the other hand....
i will stil try my best to forget being ignorant.
be my self.....
=D

Posted by Ye3Hong at 3:33:00 pm

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